Living with Cancer and Family Disappointment

Aim 61 ,soon aim going to be 62 : wend I was 60 I was diagnostic with Cancer Her2positive , aim in remission now . I will like to let know that my kid that they have 42 Boy , 41 girl , 40 girl . 5 Granddaugther . Know that I need theam they are not around they live 1.45 away from me other 1/2 hour , one 3 minute away from me . And they took care of me just 3 day and the other girl she use to stop around and later no more just she used to pass but with her grandkids later no more , the other the boy never came and stay whit me .i was very sick i can’t heaven stand by my self , every 10-15 minute in the bathroom whit Diarrhea , and nausea . Whit ulcers in my mouth and pain in my head cause o was lousing my hair , no sleep at all . Wend o used to pee or poop it was o was pooing jalepenos and burns . My feet and hands use to peel , and hot I used to put ice or walk whit no shoe just to feel the cold of the floor . I was normal Waight 168. I became 140 very thin. I use to cook for my husband but my kid never came again to take care of me . Even know ether . I had to became my own héroe . And take bath alone and cry in the tub for can no one see me . , friend visit me just to talk , my husband was like in a sock all time and see my how o do my thing and cook even I was very bad cause the Chemotherapy My kid use to call my just to see how I was doing I use to say fine but not good . I have to cook and clean for second and stop and starallovet again . They said Good mom ! You got this !! You are strong , but in side I was destroyed my self . See if they have a tiny feeling for me and NOO !! It the time and they haven’t appear . Just because I don’t like the way they treat me or do thing I don’t get alone what it is wrong .aim still dealing whit this cancer . My surgeon doctor did my 2 surgery cut ou my breath . And I look at the mirror I see my self hurt from inside out . Have 2 type of cancer one is the normal cancer but the other is killing me slowly . I look my breast I still cry because I lost my breast and family . Just my husband and me . But I have to became my awn héroe .thank