Looking for others with voice box cancer or caregivers to share experiences?

Hello all, I'm looking for someone to talk with that either has same cancer as me. Or took care of spouse. Carsonova cell cancer stage 4 both times in my voice box. 1st time chemo and radiation, went away was on bottom left. 2 and half years came back but now upper right side. Radiation not option. Can cut it out , size of golfball so choice cut it out will not be able to talk unless you do more steps which your chest muscular and it's cut and flipped to give you muscle in chin everything that was there is damaged from radiation, plus to make a full laryetomy which afterwards you can never swim again or getting in boat. So your first decision do I want to live or die. So many choices so I chosed to live, it's like 10 days your in surgery and all you can, 4 months has gone by had TEP put in to try and have a voice but nothing but problems with it 3 rd in now, really would like to hear how others are dealing with this. To share with mr knowledge Makes