How do you cope with cervical cancer complications at 45 with a young child?

My name is Tricia. I was diagnosed with 3b cervical cancer in December 22 2025. I had a colposcopy on Halloween, and all they found was cin 2 and 3 cells. It wasn't until my kidney gave me issues that they found a tumor high up on my cervix. Not even detectable through a normal pap. It compressed my ureter and a stint failed, so I have a nephrostomy tube on my left kidney. The tumor was pushing against my bladder, and after my second cycle, it opened a fistula. I have pre chemo tomorrow where we discuss if I'm getting a nephrostomy tube on the right side. My oncologist had already mentioned that a fistula would be unfixable, and I'd probably have neph tubes for life. Im only 45. I'm very upset about all this. I should be halfway done with chemo on Thursday. I have a 6 year old daughter, and I am fighting as hard as I can for her. I try not to think of all the " what ifs" and focus on the goal, which is to get through this as fast as possible. I have 5 weeks of radiation, then brachy radiation. I'm already tired.