My Breast Cancer Journey and Struggle with Addiction

I found my lump April 23, 2024. After I got over my fear of facing this lump i finally went to the Dr mid may. And after having to wait for a referral to get a mammogram and then a referral to get an MRI and then waiting for a referral for a biopsy. In September I finally got a diagnosis of Invasive Ductal Carcinoma no lymph nodes but a second tumor had appeared in my left breast. Triple negative. Then there was an insurance issue. My primary decided they were out of network. So, I canceled and then had to wait for them to drop me. Now a month later my lump that measured 3.3vm a month ago is measured 8cm. That is a big jump seeing in April it was 2.4cm. In April, I had a sobriety of 1 yr. That lump and my fears and me being weak, I relapsed for about 4 months then I quit. Then I got my diagnosis. I relapsed again. Now trying to quit again. I've been straight for a week. It's hard, I'm scared because of how strong it runs in my family. My younger sister just got done with her battle. My grandmother, mother, aunt, and cousin have all died from this disease. My cousin was the only one who battled it three times. The third time was too aggressive that chemo wouldn't have slowed it down at all. The Dr is saying i need a mastectomy. Plus I've got to quit smoking. Since ive quit my addiction I can't seem to sleep. Surprisingly I used so I could sleep. Because melatonin wasn't helping me sleep and I'm scared of pills and Marijuana has the opposite effect on me. So, now, I'm awake and I've got a date set to quit smoking cigarettes. Soon as this pack is done I'm done. Any advice to help me with the smoking? And what is the diet? I've been eating a lot of veggies and drinking apple cider and eating pomegranates and celery and broccoli.